Originally written on March 31, 2010

Due to a myriad of reasons as of late, I have been consumed in a state of self-introspection at yet another feeble attempt at actualization and coming to terms with a past that is one that most would not be proud of. Even worse, I have to come to terms with the realization and acceptance that I am the one, and only one, responsible for the choices I have made. This is never an easy realization. Blaming demons, families, addictions and relationships is typically the easier way out, at least temporarily, though that will eventually catch up to one as well. I suppose I am asking if true redemption is truly possible. If so, does it really matter? Perhaps it is just a fa├žade that we use in order to go on with our lives despite past transgressions; to deal with the guilt that we have consumed ourselves with for these said transgressions. continue reading…